spinning the plates {balance}

balance is hard to achieve when you're busy. the past few weeks I have felt like I am trying to keep all of the "plates" in my life spinning, but they keep dropping. the plates include **legalese: but are not limited to** law school (with two mini-plates of reading for classes and then outlining/reviewing for those classes), Michael, family, friends (maintaining old & establishing new), overall health (exercise & sleep), and my relationship with the Lord. I realize that in different seasons of life some plates are going to require more attention than others, but there is always this pressure to keep them all up and not let any crash. 

this past week, I have felt like they are all crashing. I haven't exercised since Sunday **and we won't even talk about sleep bcuz what even is that**; I don't get to call or write notes like I want to for my awesome family and sweet friends; I feel like a terrible girlfriend because there is like one hour in each day that I get to spend with Michael without studying; I feel like my relationship with the Lord has been overrun with law school & that's all I ever bring to Him anymore; and there is this annoying, nagging, DUMB comparison thing in the back of my head with my classmates on how they answered questions, how far they've gotten in their work for the week, how long they spend in the library... **this list goes on and on**

the key in all of this is the "I feel." I continue to put these ridiculously high expectations on myself instead of being realistic within my own abilities in a single day. this became evident to me when the past three days of to-do lists (aka: my expectations for myself) barely have the first three or four of 10-15 items crossed off. that can either stress me out **which it did, but I'm trying to do what's next** OR I can choose to stop. breathe. and realize that I probably should reevaluate my expectations. it's ok if I can't get all of those things done today. prioritize that thing, sister, and be ok with not being perfect. because I'm not. and that's 100% ok with me. so here's to realistic expectations, breathing, & not letting the crazy overrun you.