weekend update

this past weekend was just what I needed to close out this past week. friday night I went with some friends to a concert at George's Majestic in fayetteville... I didn't know the artists, but it was a fun night out with friends, music, & dancing. all three of which I am always down for! saturday I went for the first long run of my half-marathon training **grand total of 4 miles** which felt incredible! this past week of running has been the best since getting back into it. I believe that running during warm weather should be considered a drug. it's intoxicating, and always draws me back for more. **am I crazy? don't answer that...**

the rest of saturday was a different story. this past week I have been somewhere between breaking down and numb. I couldn't quite put my finger on why I was feeling that way **oh, maybe it's this massive life transition that's rapidly approaching**, but it finally hit me after a quick Target run. **side note: I really might have a problem when it comes to Target** as soon as my front door closed, a flood of emotion hit me and I began crying. I still haven't begun to process all of the different thoughts that were coming at me during that break down or the one later that night in bed, but I do feel a little better. this morning at church, Simon spoke about finding your identity in Christ and not in all the other things that can control you. I believe that a huge part of my breakdown was fear of not being good enough, in my own eyes, in my parent's eyes, in the world's eyes through this whole transition. I was going to the world for my identity and not who God says I am in Him. worst. this week I will be holding fast to the truth that I am His. In Him, I have immense value. He will never leave more or forsake me. the only place I will ever find true satisfaction is in His will, His good, pleasing and perfect will. so here's to being reminded of truth daily. happy monday.