today marks the last day of spring break before classes begin again. we are diving head first into the second half of the semester. my appellate brief is due in 3 weeks; oral arguments begin immediately after; and finals are so close I can taste them. real talk: this semester of law school has been rough. I can officially look back at last semester and think, "wow, that was so much easier." **yikes** it seems like this semester the voices in my head are more frequent. they are almost ever-present; whispers mostly & sometimes screams. they tell me that I'm not cut out for this, and I should just quit while I'm behind. they laugh at me for thinking I could plan a wedding & do second semester of 1L year at the same time. they tell me there's no way I'll find a job after this 3 years of crazy. they compare me to all my hard-working classmates who are at the library constantly and involved in everything. they are very convincing, & it's so tempting to believe them.
but then I remember why I'm here. I go back & read this and this and this ... these posts and journal entries on journal entries remind me that this is exactly where I am supposed to be. the Lord brought me here for a specific purpose. do I know what that is yet? no. but it brings me peace in knowing that the voices in my head are just lies; lies that I can choose to believe OR choose to replace with truth. today I am choosing truth. today I will be faithful to what the Lord has called me to do. today I will do my absolute best with what I am given and allow Him to work out the rest.
here's to truth, time to reflect, & realizing the lies are just voices...
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