Deuteronomy 31:6,8
today I did yet another great devotional on SheReadsTruth and was struck by the honesty with which the author of that particular devo wrote. she talked about a crippling fear, and how it was a sign of her lack of trust in the Lord. while I was reading it, I was like "yeah, girl, you gotta take care of that..." but then as I read this Scripture and allowed it to sink in my heart, I began to realize this is me. that is exactly what was happening in my heart. ok, I realize that in this passage Moses is talking to the israelites about going into the promise land and fighting a ton of people to take the land. I realize that law school and finals are not the canaanites. however, there is still this crippling fear that comes over me when I begin to think about finals.
finals are when it all shakes out. that's when you find out what you're really made of, and whether you can hack it in law school. if I'm honest, I'm incredibly fearful of failure. I put these high expectations on myself to look like I have it all together; like this law school thing "ain't no thang"; like I actually understand contracts **which I don't**; like I'm totally 100% ready for finals. real talk: I'm not, and they terrify me to my core. BUT this truth cuts like a sword straight through me because I know, beyond a shadow of doubt, that this is exactly where the Lord has me. I know that I would not be here right now if it wasn't for His perfect plan that I don't yet see fully. I know that He is going before me, so I do not have to be afraid. He will not fail me or forsake me.
so here's to authenticity, doing my best for the Lord, and allowing His truth to permeate my heart.
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