struggle bus {wedding planning part 1}

this may be a funny post 8-days out from the wedding, but since when do I like to do be normal? don't get me wrong, I am so so SO excited to be marrying my adventure partner for life in just over a week, but there are a few other thoughts and feelings running through my mind. before we dive into those thoughts and feelings, there is something you should know about me: planning is one of my favorite things in the world. I love everything about it! dreaming, organizing, prioritizing, to-do list-ing, and executing... it just breathes life into my bones. **ok,ok, that may have been dramatic... but really** however, there have been two struggles that planning my wedding has brought out in me trying to steal that fun. today I will address the first one and tomorrow the second.

1. the pressure to lose weight. #sweatingforthewedding #honeymoonbod #bikinibod #LGN #bridalbod #fitbride ...I mean the list goes on and on with how many hashtags there are for brides losing weight. in fact, if you aren't planning on losing weight for your wedding, prepare yourself for some push-back from others. there is this huge pressure to alter yourself to be the hottest girl who ever walked down the aisle. if you consider yourself to be a healthy size, you must mentally prepare yourself to give an answer when everyone asks what diet you are on or what workout plan you have implemented. I can't even go on pinterest without seeing "7 foods you should never eat", "how to lose those last 10 pounds", "what 20 foods to avoid during wedding week"... it's maddening. 

here's my answer: I'm not on a pre-wedding diet or workout plan. with a past history of disordered eating, I don't weigh myself. ever. why? because the number freaks me out and sends me into a place I don't want to go back to. how do I live without knowing if I'm a healthy weight?! by being active most days and eating all things in moderation **yes, that includes dessert, fries, and chips & salsa** I don't have time to kill myself everyday, and I need the energy that a well-balanced diet gives me to do the things I love! sometimes being active looks like a short walk, other times I get to go for a long run, and sometimes I mix in some lunges and weights. do I find myself eating a tad "healthier" these weeks/days leading up to the wedding, sure! do I find myself making sure to do that extra set of ab workouts? absolutely! however, this is not a total re-haul of my body. it is just life and trying to be a good steward of what has been entrusted to me: mind, body, time and energy! 

here's to training for life, running tan lines, and dessert!